it's all in your mind, it's all in all in all in your head.

07.06.08

Everything seems so far away. MADD Camp, Annual Conference, Youth Jam... all the elements that made up my entire pubescent existence have disappeared. Who am I now? What do I believe? Is God still around to show me the way?

Well, I know the answer the last one. No. He's not. I'm not sorry to say it, either. God is not here and He never was. God is a construct of man to displace blame and attribute praise. The only entity with any sort of power is me. Not, me, Oh great wonderful Carly ruler of the universe, but me. The person. The individual that once let God take credit is now the one who deserves accolades.

I don't know. It just...
it came to me in a dream.
I had to share it.

before after